I used to love to write. I could write for hours and virtually anywhere and everywhere. I often would write in the middle of classes, clubs, and church. It was the sort of escapist talent I've perfected now as an adult. But of course, dedication isn't something I'm really good at. So I haven't written in quite some time. I have bursts of writing for a week or two here and there but inevitably it falls away.
Except writing is how I analyze and process events and epiphanies. When I don't write, I descend into this foggy mire of thinking. Which is where I've been for the past two years. I have let other people and other situations affect me. I have gone to the brink of despair and just wanted to wait for something to push me over the edge into death. Dramatic, right? Yeah. I have a flair for that.
But even at that edge...I could never do that. Something inside refused it. It would argue and fight back against the gloom, doom, and surrender I felt. I can no longer embrace the attitude of "bleh" that I have so far permitted in my life. That fighting aspect to me is one I want to embrace now.
So, my first goal that I want to work on is a daily submission of a blog entry on here. Whether it's photos, analyzing of a book I've read, updates on goals, new goals, or just reflections I want and will post something daily. But I won't post more than one thing.
This should be interesting!
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